It’s almost dawn and his eyes are still wide open
The stars’ charm have wasted again.
The night only produced more darkness
The dilemma has kept him up for days
He’s always wanted the best for her
He has always been the best for her
And now this?!
” Life is so unfair “, he mutters
But he knows, his inactions brought this upon himself.
² He still recalls that birthday party
They were both intoxicated
High off the euphoria.
They made love at the beach.
Nothing seemed wrong at that moment
The cold breeze blowing her weave and strands of it occasionally teasing his face
She moaned out loud, as he journeyed deep inside her.
He should have used protection
But when alcohol and teenage love meet
There is no thought nor consideration.
There’s only pleasure or pain beyond measure
³ It’s been a month since then
30 long days trapped inside his own little den
And here he lays with his head staring blank at the ceiling
Hoping for a miracle, hoping that all will be well in the morning
But its already morning. He’s hoping for something that can never be
The bleeding gets worse.
He had given her the pills two nights before
Thinking it would be over soon
But the bleeding just wouldn’t stop
And she just couldn’t keep from crying and cursing at him for putting her through so much pain
So on the morning of the third day when he woke up to silence, he thought it was finally over
Like when a baby stops crying you know it has what it wants
Then he pinched her but she wouldn’t barge
Her face looked so pale
Her body became so cold
He shot out of bed and stood beside her lifeless body
Just staring, thinking and praying
⁴ His carpet was now soaked up with her blood
He knew he was going to prison if he called the ambulance
So in that dark and lost state
He took the rest of the pills
Gulped the whole down
And penned down a note:
” Goodbye Mom, sorry I let you down… ”
Then his eyes shut
To be a man